Sunday, January 31, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thanks guys. ;)
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Kind of like when I was waiting on little Miss Tirzah to show up last summer. I knew she had to come out, eventually...I mean I hoped she would come out on her own. Sure enough, she did. I barely got to the hospital in time, actually. She was born pretty much immediately after I jumped into one of those terribly flattering hospital gowns.
As much as I'm sure of things like Spring coming around again, the winter ending, the sun coming up again, my little girl finally making her appearance, and Merrick continuing to make me scream and laugh countless times in the same day, who am I kidding...the same 5 minutes, I'm sure that these things are totally out of my control.
That might be scary...if I had no idea Who was actually in control of these things. Thank goodness Someone has Merrick and Tirzah in their hands...because I definitely need some help. They're ruthless. ;)
But, in this bleakness of the winter, when I feel like hibernating...I have the promise of Spring. Not just the bird-chirping, flower-blooming kind...but the promise that even in the winter, the rough seasons of my life, I know that something much better is yet to come. This life I've been given is rich with blessings, and I love it...and it's because I have the One Who controls the seasons and can tame the hooligans making some pretty sweet promises.
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
- Isaiah 41:10 -
This week at You Capture the theme was Color...check out their site for some great shots!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
So when I read on someone somewhere's blog, I really can't remember who it was, about doing a 3 day detox...I thought I could handle that. It only required one day of a water fast, and two following days of water and fruit, or water and vegetables. I like fruit. I like vegetables. I hate water...but I think I can handle this. I decided, in a moment of pure insanity, that I needed to kick my caffeine habit soundly to the curb once and for all. Maybe I'd learn to like plain old flavorless clear water in the process. You can tell how fond I am of water. No really...I've been known to not drink anything, instead of drinking non-flavored water. Pathetic I know. I am the family health freak in most cases, running daily and avoiding the bacon that my hubby constantly consumes...but for some reason, I can't gag down a glass of water.
So Monday morning was go time. I started off going strong. I usually don't have a lot to eat or drink in the early morning anyway...since I usually like to run better without a full stomach. Even after lunch time had come and gone, and I'd fixed Merrick and Tirzah breakfast and lunch...Merrick's PB&J was looking really good...I was still ok.
The afternoon wore on. The kids woke up from their naps, and acted like 2 people who still needed naps. By this time it was about 4 pm. They were screaming, climbing, crying, whining, laughing and talking, eating...they were just constantly eating. Yummy stuff like pureed green beans and rice cereal. Kidding, that stuff is nasty, but I knew detox was looking like a big fail when that thought crossed my mind. The kids had no mercy, and I decided that man cannot live on whining alone...and finally gave in. I made a roast beef and cheese sandwich and pretty much ate it in one bite and .5 seconds. Since it was all I could think about since about 2 pm. Why roast beef and cheese I have no idea.
I felt kinda pathetic after I gave in, but at the same time my kids were suddenly not quite so annoying. I have officially decided that going without food is probably not the best route for a mother of 2 very small hooligans. I need to conserve my strength. ;) I am still trying to drink more water, and haven't even had a diet Dr. Pepper yet today, which is a miracle all by itself. I have also discovered I don't actually gag if I put about a 1/4 of a lime in the bottom of my cup of water. So I guess detox wasn't a complete fail. Maybe one day down the road I'll give it another try...like when the kids are older and not eating those tasty pureed green beans. ;)
Monday, January 25, 2010
There are so many new and interesting things I'm learning, so much about the wife and mother and woman I want and need to be. There is so much about me that needs to be smoothed out, humbled, or maybe even roughed up a little. I don't want to get to a stopping point where I don't want to get any better, or don't think I need to get any better. I want to keep improving, changing, having my eyes opened, stretching and growing...in every aspect, from marriage and motherhood to photography. No one likes being uncomfortable. But when I look at it through the promise that I'll come out better on the other side, I'll take the texture, even if it may be a little rough.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
But I wasn't almost late because of me...I was waiting on my mom to finish getting her hair done. *Granted this time she wasn't totally to blame...I don't think the lady doing her hair understood I was getting married in like an hour and was still wearing jeans. :)*
Now that I'm all old, grown up, responsible and everything *wink, wink* I am now the one who seems to have trouble being on time. I promise you, though, it really doesn't have anything to do with taking to long to do my hair, or applying gobs of make-up, which really isn't my thing, or trying on 100 different pairs of shoes...because really I only have like 10 pairs of shoes and I think half are flip-flops. ;)
Now it's not my mom making me miss appointments, it's my furniture climbing firstborn. It seems like I can't get out of the house, because it takes me days to get ready to go anywhere. I'm constantly being interrupted by things crashing or having to retrieve him from various pieces of furniture that have Emergency Room potential. Sometimes I'm really not sure how he got to the places he's gotten to. I've decided that I either need to get ready completely, trip to the gym and all, before Billy leaves the house in the morning, or just stay home...
...at least until Merrick is over climbing the furniture and finding new ways to get out the front door. When can I expect that to happen? Oh right, when he leaves for college. ;)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I am just like any girl, and love getting flowers and chocolate for Valentine's day, or any day for that matter. I'm not picky about what day I get chocolate. Today would be fine. I may like to run, but I'm not the type of health freak who would turn down a piece of chocolate.
There is something that does make me feel loved, and in a much more real-and-every-day, seen ya without all your make-up, heard you throw your characteristic fit kind of way.
...working longs hours at a job that you really don't like all that much...
...and saying bedtime prayers.
This week at You Capture the theme was Love at Your House. Check out the link for some great captures and blogs!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I mean, chances are one of the kids will be fine on any given car trip...but the chance that both kids will just sit back and enjoy the ride? You guessed it. Nope.
So recently when we traveled to Florida...I was in a panic thinking of all the screaming that I was going to endure. And already a bit embarrassed about what everyone else in my mom's 15 passenger was going to think. (Can't this lady control these kids? Actually, no. I can't. I do try...they just inherited mule-like stubbornness. Where from? No idea. Surely not me. Hopefully they won't also inherit my tendency to follow rabbit trails while writing.) Merrick is a free spirit, which means the car seat straps seem to be burning a hole in his limbs, to hear him tell it. Tirzah just doesn't like to go anywhere without being held...and car seats just don't count when it comes to holding.
The trip down was actually ok. We traveled through the night, and both kids slept almost the whole night through. Tirzah did the best of the two...even sleeping longer than she does at home. Merrick just woke up at 6:30 am and wanted everyone else in the van to be just as awake as he was. They were not of the same mindset. ;) The trip back was during the day. I call that day: the day the crying never ended. Tirzah was NOT a happy camper. She was awake, and no one was holding her...this is not acceptable. Merrick was also awake, and was strapped in to that abominable car seat...also not acceptable. I didn't realize it was possible to hear the words "Mommy gee out" so many times. *which is actually supposed to be: Mommy, get out.*
We were crammed in there like sardines, but we finally made it back home after the 12 hour trip. All kidding aside, I'm grateful that we had a safe trip there and back. I'm always grateful for safe travel...even if it isn't safe for my sanity. And I really don't mind hearing "mommy, gee out!" as long as we get where we're going. What I'm not going to be ready to hear is: "Mom, can I have the keys?" Thank goodness I've got a few more years of car seats...
Monday, January 18, 2010
I hope as these two hooligans get older, after the "mom she's touching me!" and "hey that's mine!" phase is over, they'll be best friends, too. And I wouldn't mind a phone call now and then, ya know, or every day. ;)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
These feelings were just reinforced this past week I spent with my siblings. We spend a day at Downtown Disney...wandering in and out of stores and freezing our toes off. The girls all wandered into the Princess store, trying on silly crowns and oohing and ahhing over the Disney princesses...and the boys rolled their eyes.
Then the guys promptly wandered into the Pirates of the Caribbean section, and started beating each other with swords and light sabers...and the girls rolled their eyes. :)
Merrick and Tirzah are totally different, also. Merrick said tractor before he said Mommy. I definitely didn't teach him that...but I did cry about it. :) Tirzah loves to be stared at and sweet-talked, and will scream her head off if you don't use the right tone of voice with her...even as a six-month-old.
I know that they are both still young, and who knows what they will be interested in when they get older. Tirzah may play football, and Merrick might keep on dancing like he does now. :) But I'm learning, from the differences in the two of them, more about what they need from me individually. And this applies to other people in my life also. Take a second to get to know someone and what they need from you...you might have been put in their path for just that reason. As usual, my little hooligans teach me big lessons. I just hope that out of the two of them, someone will grow up to tolerate shopping trips with Mom. :)
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
But I did come back way more rested than I expected, and got a lesson in learning to take a second to sit still.
Billy and I have been talking lately about how we need to carve out more time for just being...resting and enjoying our family and the time we have to be together. I think vacation in Florida, where we were pretty much forced to remain indoors because of the record-breaking cold temperatures, was a good way to get that started. I'm not sure we would have come back nearly so rested up if we had perfect weather we were all hoping for, and had crammed every free minute full of something to do.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
So in light of that...I just wanted to share this video of Tirzah, who is learning to use her walker, backwards. Just cuz I thought it was so cute...but don't rat me out to the kids. We'll be having chocolate for lunch in no time. ;)
Monday, January 11, 2010
We had a great time, though, and I'm trying to remember that restful vacation feeling I had as I have a stare-down with my yet-to-be-unpacked suitcase. Have I mentioned before that I hate unpacking? Even the groceries. I'd rather just leave them in the car and eat out of the trunk. Not really...but I really don't like unpacking. Thankfully all the clothes are clean...we had a washer at the house we rented, so I washed them before we left to eliminate what I see as double the unpacking.
We did bring more than packed suitcases back with us though. Like, finally feeling caught up on some much needed sleep, some new experiences (bocce ball, and arctic dips in the 55 degree resort pool), and lots of good memories with our hooligans (their first trip to Sea World...I considered leaving them for a few days to see if the trainers there would have any luck with a new breed of wild animals.) We all had a fun and refreshing week (...even though I'm still annoyed with the unpacking) and I have misplaced the dark circles under my eyes just to prove it. I think we are all glad to be back home.
This week at I Heart Faces the theme is *Best Face*. Check out their site for more great blogs and pictures!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
He has also started helping himself to thing in the fridge when I'm not looking. This is not allowed. Especially when it leads to not eating your lunch later. He's become quite the picky eater...today at lunch he refused to eat his PB&J, but begged my younger sister to give him a bite of the raw eggs she was stirring. I'm pretty sure salmonella is not on the list of things I want to do this coming New Year. Usually when he raids the fridge its for things like string cheese, that he can't unwrap himself. So he has to rat himself out, and bring it to me to get it unwrapped. As my mom always used to tell me...be sure your sins will find you out. ;) I guess that applies even if it is the sin of snatching string cheese.
As you can see...this morning he was in the mood for grapes. I'm just glad that he didn't decide to help himself to the gallon of milk.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Anyone who has children has probably experienced one of those "eyes at weird angles, tongue hanging out" kind of moments. I guess I just always blamed my kids for that. But then...my sister so lovingly tagged this photo of me , and my not-so-little-anymore brother, on facebook the other day. I realized that maybe, just maybe, I was crazy before I had the kids. But even if I didn't get the insanity from my children, I'm pretty sure Merrick, who is in this next picture, got his taste in sunglasses from me. ;)