I Miss My Camera

I don't get to spend nearly enough time with my camera as I'd like. It always seems like if I pick it up, someone else who will remain nameless but we all know who she is, wants to be picked up. She's our pet diva. Except we already had one diva in this house...so here's to doing double diva duty for the foreseeable future. I'm trying not to imagine my home when these two girls are teenagers.

I can occasionally trick her into letting me take pictures by handing her to Merrick. (Unfortunately...her diva sister is too prone to spaz attacks to hold her and keep her calm.) Merrick is really good with her, though, and loves to hold her and help feed her. So if it seems like there are a lot of pictures of Merrick holding Amaryllis, but not Tirzah holding Amaryllis, now you know why. ;)

I so love photography. It's fallen to the back burner like so many other things...this blog, and sleeping, and eating, and having any type of free time, or showering. I know these full days are exactly the thing I want to document, though...so I'm going to make an effort to pick up my actual camera as opposed to my phone more often. 

Granted a lot of times by the time I get to the camera, whatever was happening isn't happening anymore. Like last night when we were having another daddy-works-all-night induced movie night, and all four kiddos were lined up on the floor and content. By the time I got the camera Amaryllis had lost her mind and was about to be voted off the island by all the siblings who now couldn't hear the movie.

Even though I didn't actually capture it in my camera...I know that image is going to be burned into my brain for the rest of my life. No, not the one of Amaryllis screaming...although that is definitely going to be burned into my brain...but the four of them, as little as they'll never be again, together and happy.

There are some things I am looking forward to hopefully catching with my camera again. But there are also the things, like that moment, where I know I just wont be able to capture just how precious this time with these kiddos really is, or how fast it's moving.