It's towards the end of the day now...close to the time when the kids are finally quiet and in the bed. I love their loud noises,
and them, so much, but I also need my quiet time to myself like any mom, or probably any human, can understand.
Sometimes I tell Billy I feel like I don't have any room in my own head, for all the understandable
noise going on when you have 2 young kids. I can't think without a thought being very effectively interrupted by a squeal or a "mommy!". *I've lost count of how many times I've stopped/started writing this post in the last 30 minutes.* I love that these
too-cute-for-their-own-good hooligans are here to interrupt me, but also looove having some time to think and just let my thoughts run.
I kind of start to get crazy without some wind down time. I'm thankful that my husband gets it, maybe for self-preservation reasons ;), and is always making sure I get some of that time at the end of one of our usually chaotic and busy days.
I'm beginning to notice that, even though sometimes I still feel guilty about it, it's important to take care of me...so I can take care of my family. Not to the point of being lazy, or neglecting them, or being rude, but just making sure that I don't let myself believe the lie that I have to
do it all...all the time. The toys don't have to be picked up, and Merrick won't shrivel up if he eats string cheese and a corn dog for dinner instead of something from scratch.
I can't give to them, if I don't have anything to give. If I haven't spend the time I need being quiet and still
before God and apart from this world I won't have anything from which to draw what they will definitely ask of me. I'm their mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, whatever...and they need me. So I need to take care of the resource God will use to serve them: myself. Like I said, not selfishly, but wisely. In a sense...I guess I gotta do a little more looking out for "number 1" because they deserve to get the best I've got. ;)
This week at You Capture the theme was *Shapes*...and while mine may be a little hard to find in these pictures they are there somewhere. ;) Check out You Capture for more great photos and blogs!
Sometimes I tell Billy I feel like I don't have any room in my own head, for all the understandable noise going on when you have 2 young kids. I can't think without a thought being very effectively interrupted by a squeal or a "mommy!". *I've lost count of how many times I've stopped/started writing this post in the last 30 minutes.* I love that these too-cute-for-their-own-good hooligans are here to interrupt me, but also looove having some time to think and just let my thoughts run.
I kind of start to get crazy without some wind down time. I'm thankful that my husband gets it, maybe for self-preservation reasons ;), and is always making sure I get some of that time at the end of one of our usually chaotic and busy days.
I'm beginning to notice that, even though sometimes I still feel guilty about it, it's important to take care of me...so I can take care of my family. Not to the point of being lazy, or neglecting them, or being rude, but just making sure that I don't let myself believe the lie that I have to do it all...all the time. The toys don't have to be picked up, and Merrick won't shrivel up if he eats string cheese and a corn dog for dinner instead of something from scratch.
I can't give to them, if I don't have anything to give. If I haven't spend the time I need being quiet and still before God and apart from this world I won't have anything from which to draw what they will definitely ask of me. I'm their mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, whatever...and they need me. So I need to take care of the resource God will use to serve them: myself. Like I said, not selfishly, but wisely. In a sense...I guess I gotta do a little more looking out for "number 1" because they deserve to get the best I've got. ;)
This week at You Capture the theme was *Shapes*...and while mine may be a little hard to find in these pictures they are there somewhere. ;) Check out You Capture for more great photos and blogs!
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